Sexual abuse. Incest. Molestation. Words that make everyone cringe. Words you wish you didn’t know the meaning of…
Growing up in rural Alaska, these are things many people know about even before we know there are words for them. But they can affect us every day of our lives if we let them, sometimes they mold us into who we are.
Because of what happened to her and her family when she was young, my mom was always veryprotective of us growing up. But there was one thing she didn’t know about, and later found out, that her biggest fear had become a reality. From what I can remember, it started when I was about 3 years old. I remember racing to his room to give him a hug so we could get a treat. We thought nothing of it, until it escalated into more and more. It wasn’t long before it came to a point where we didn’t want to see him, hear his voice, or even smell him. When he walked into the room, we would immediately find a place to sit just so he had no chance. He would bribe us to play on his computer while he touched us. None of the adults knew why we ran past his room as fast as we could or didn’t want to be left with him babysitting us. It seemed like each of us knew what was going on, but we never talked about our little secret. Finally, one day, I found the courage to tell my mom and it was the best thing I’ve ever done.
He was convicted and spent a few years in jail and in a sexual abuse treatment center to get help. It turns out, he was abused himself. But the cycle of abuse has stopped with me and my family. We chose to fight it, talk about it, and use it to help as many people as we can.
I know many, MANY of you have had experience with this and I just want to encourage you today. First of all, you need to know that NO MATTER WHAT, IT ISN’T YOUR FAULT. You may be a victim now, but God turns victims into victory and it starts with telling someone. It’s terrifying to think of what can happen, but as my sister says, “when every answer seems like a ‘lose-lose’ situation, you just have to choose the right thing”. I can’t imagine where I’d be if I never said anything! I can honestly say that I am not ashamed of this and it’s made me a stronger person. I think the more we try to hide these things, the more power we give to it, and the weaker we get. I want you to know that my mom and I have prayed for you and asked God to give you strength, courage, and hope. It’s time to let go of the shame, stand strong, and stop the cycle.
“Even though you planned evil against me, God planned good to come out of it. This was to keep many people alive, as he is doing now.” Genesis 50:20
“He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us.” 2 Corinthians 1:4
RULES FOR NO MAKEUP MONDAYS:
1) Take the day off from makeup
2) Dress up, do your hair, so your beauty isn’t hidden behind a scrubby look
3) Be proud of the natural beauty that you are
4) Give God glory today!
5) GUYS – Appreciate! 🙂
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